okay so i was on face book when one of my best friends in the whole world ( a future columbia college student too lol) tagged me in this note about running from our problems peep it out :
Running
by Alexis knighten
July 22,2009 10:57pm
(Just a free-write take it as you please, its my artistic expression of why some people avoid issues they face in their lives and the dreams that depict them.)All I remember doing is running. Running as fast and as hard as I could to get away from these unknown figures pursuing me in this dark alley. Then I blacked out...When I came to, my vision was blurry and the room was bright, bright white as a matter of fact. The walls were as white as my skin from the ensuing fear in my soul. What happened and where was I? A dark image loomed over me as I laid there in shock. Then another and another came to join from all different directions in the room. I wanted to get up and run but I was paralyzed...The figures disappeared and the white room went blank. My alarm clock started ringing and I was now back in reality, in a dazed, confused, and soaked in sweat. I checked my cell phone and saw that I had ten missed calls, all from ten different people whom I’d been running from, avoiding at every cost. Whether it were my sister bugging me for money I owed her, or a friend asking for clothes I borrowed, or maybe the various creditors harassing me for money I would never have for them. I was running from them...I got out of bed to take a shower which always soothes my soul after a nightmare. I put on the same jeans I've been wearing for the last week and put on a shirt from my years in high school. Walking down the street I notice the cars passing me by and wonder why they are moving so fast...Maybe the driver is running from something themselves, or maybe running to something. Maybe they are trying to avoid the football husband and his meat-head buddies in the beautiful home meant for peaceful Sundays IN each others arms instead of the overload of make energy. Maybe they are running to the hospital to see their baby boy or girl be born and hold their wife's hand while she bares the pain of life. Whatever it is they are running in their four-wheeled vehicle passing me by. I make it to the park bench and have a seat to watch the various people run the track. They may be running to keep their physique in tack, or maybe they run to relieve the stress of life as a lawyer, a defense lawyer at that, running from the fact that they have to defend a man who murdered a mother and her child just because in his sick mind it would bring him a thrill that nothing else in this world would, or maybe they run to avoid the fact that they are cheating on their husband because he’s trying to support his family and loving wife by breaking his already weakened back in a under paid workforce. They run and they keep running...I leave that Chicago park wondering what will be waiting for me at the front door of my studio apartment. Almost two blocks away from my door, I decided to start running. Whomever is after me in reality or in my dreams will not be able to catch up with me now. Imp running, running as fast and as hard as I can. Running, just running....
so after reading that i started doing a lot of thinking about why is it that we run from our problems ? we all had talked before about the problems that face us as being members of the art community like financial issues being a major one and family acceptance. but instead of facing those issues why is is SO much easier just to accept things as they are and run from them ? do we do it because we cant handle the stress? or do we just not have the Strength to face the issues be cause we lack confidence? i think we should all post our problems here say if were running from them or facing them and why or why not
Running
by Alexis knighten
July 22,2009 10:57pm
(Just a free-write take it as you please, its my artistic expression of why some people avoid issues they face in their lives and the dreams that depict them.)All I remember doing is running. Running as fast and as hard as I could to get away from these unknown figures pursuing me in this dark alley. Then I blacked out...When I came to, my vision was blurry and the room was bright, bright white as a matter of fact. The walls were as white as my skin from the ensuing fear in my soul. What happened and where was I? A dark image loomed over me as I laid there in shock. Then another and another came to join from all different directions in the room. I wanted to get up and run but I was paralyzed...The figures disappeared and the white room went blank. My alarm clock started ringing and I was now back in reality, in a dazed, confused, and soaked in sweat. I checked my cell phone and saw that I had ten missed calls, all from ten different people whom I’d been running from, avoiding at every cost. Whether it were my sister bugging me for money I owed her, or a friend asking for clothes I borrowed, or maybe the various creditors harassing me for money I would never have for them. I was running from them...I got out of bed to take a shower which always soothes my soul after a nightmare. I put on the same jeans I've been wearing for the last week and put on a shirt from my years in high school. Walking down the street I notice the cars passing me by and wonder why they are moving so fast...Maybe the driver is running from something themselves, or maybe running to something. Maybe they are trying to avoid the football husband and his meat-head buddies in the beautiful home meant for peaceful Sundays IN each others arms instead of the overload of make energy. Maybe they are running to the hospital to see their baby boy or girl be born and hold their wife's hand while she bares the pain of life. Whatever it is they are running in their four-wheeled vehicle passing me by. I make it to the park bench and have a seat to watch the various people run the track. They may be running to keep their physique in tack, or maybe they run to relieve the stress of life as a lawyer, a defense lawyer at that, running from the fact that they have to defend a man who murdered a mother and her child just because in his sick mind it would bring him a thrill that nothing else in this world would, or maybe they run to avoid the fact that they are cheating on their husband because he’s trying to support his family and loving wife by breaking his already weakened back in a under paid workforce. They run and they keep running...I leave that Chicago park wondering what will be waiting for me at the front door of my studio apartment. Almost two blocks away from my door, I decided to start running. Whomever is after me in reality or in my dreams will not be able to catch up with me now. Imp running, running as fast and as hard as I can. Running, just running....
so after reading that i started doing a lot of thinking about why is it that we run from our problems ? we all had talked before about the problems that face us as being members of the art community like financial issues being a major one and family acceptance. but instead of facing those issues why is is SO much easier just to accept things as they are and run from them ? do we do it because we cant handle the stress? or do we just not have the Strength to face the issues be cause we lack confidence? i think we should all post our problems here say if were running from them or facing them and why or why not
This is very true i used to sweep my problems under the rug. Just recently did i realize it is much easier to deal with each problem when they come up. Then you wont feel over burdened by a list of problems that you have been avoiding.
ReplyDeleteone of the problems that i am kinda ignoring would have to be me not really facing what the future really holds for me after college, the dreamer in me really wants to make up a nice dream that i will be in a really well known dance company, but its probably not going to happen like that, im probably gonna face rejection a lot, and im scared of that. because the arts profession is such a hard profession to pursue, and only few make a great living from it, im scared of not being stable in my life, i dont wanna think about running from job to job. so for me thats something that i am currently running away from, really having my future planned out.
ReplyDeleteI think people are just lazy. They'd always rather let situations play themselves out than to do something about it. Sometimes there's just no immediate solution to the situation.
ReplyDeleteyea thats is right this blog is true. Cuz putting your problems back it only make them a bigger problem when it comes back.
ReplyDeleteyea.
ReplyDeleteI can relate to this so much. Sometimes I shut people out. I tend to not want to deal with stress of everyday life or deal with people’s drama let alone my own demons.. I have a lot of burried secrets or demons that I don’t want to face. I don’t want to face them. Maybe I just lack the confidence to go through and deal with it. Its just easier that way. But in the end, our problems are still there. So we are left to face them. That’s life. Facing the challenges ahead. But for just that while running away can make us feel better for that time.
ReplyDeleteI don't really have any problems relating to acceptance from those around me, but the idea of having to pay back a lot of money doesn't really thrill me. The only way I've been able to look beyond this is because I've been overly confident in my decision to attend Columbia. I'm guessing that's facing a problem, even though it really won't affect me until I'm done here.
ReplyDeleteI use to run away from my problems because i was afraid to face them.but then i realized that not facing them makes things more harder for me, and i felt nothing but presure bluiding up.SOOO to get ride of my stress, i learned how to handle it ,by speacking up for myself and not caring about what others think.its all about self confidence!
ReplyDeletei like so totally understand what you mean sexydancer lol im kind of facing the same problem myself maybe we sahould like start vopening our mind to other possibilitess that could help us out in the future but i think what scares me the most is i end up becoming a joe jackson instead of a michel jackason ... DOES ANYBODY GET THAT ?
ReplyDeleteI'm one of those people that physically run. Ever since i was young and started doing races in my small town, everytime i had stress or something i really needded to think about, i would find a good trail, and go. Putting all those miles behind me felt like i was putting my problems behind me. The i started getting really bad arthritis in my knees and had to stop running as much. Now i kinda feel like i dont really have that escape, so i face my problems head on. I think both running from and facing your problems head on can help. Cuz in the end, i figured it out. Because you never really get away from your problems, but the space between can make it easier to see the way out.
ReplyDeleteRight now i have a major issue im trying to get awyay from because im too scared to face it head on. I blaim myself soo much for my brothers fiance's death that it just eats at me every day. I cant get over the fact that she was driving up to see me in a show, that if she wasnt hurrying, she would still be here. I know i shouldnt blaim myself, it was just one of those things, but it bothers me.
YES MARTIN... IM ALWAYS TRYNA RUN AWAY FROM MY PROBLEM BUT I REALIZE THAT ONLY MAKE IT WORST..SO LIKE NOW I JUS TRY TO ADRESS THE PROBLEM....
ReplyDeleteomg texas im so sorry for your loase but we can nevr blame ourselc=ves for things that are inevitable i can gurentee you if you had not been waiting for her she would have still died that day sum other way it was just her time
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